I find myself in an interesting place. Every time I leave my Greek class I get this overwhelming feeling that I can't do all of this. The thought of maybe I'm not meant for seminary creeps into my head. I sit down and try to do my greek hw and I get that feeling again so I stop. I go back and attempt the hw again but this time I actually do fairly well and feel good about this whole seminary thing.

The interesting place I'm in however is that I know that seminary is almost this testing ground for me. I could finish this semester/year and decide that seminary is not where I should be. I could go through with the whole thing and love it. The thing that must happen though is that I must give this journey its proper try. I cannot decide now that I don't like this place and just leave. I have to struggle through and figure this out. How do I keep those thoughts in balance? How do I really let God guide me?

Right now home is still Chicago. It's the place I am most comfortable. But seminary had to be done elsewhere. The elsewhere is where I will find out more about myself. It's tough and I don't like feeling this way. I try to remind myself that I have to do this, I have to struggle through. I don't want to but I think I see the benefit in it all.