Sorry for the gap in my entries. Things were pretty busy and I'm sure they will continue to get busier.

- Last week was orientation. I thought it was a fairly good introduction to the seminary. There was a lot of info thrown around. There were also fellowship activities planned which was good. We had two bbq's on wednesday and thursday. We even got to do some line dancing on thursday night.

- Friday I came back to Chicago because Nick and Danica got married on the 31st. The weekend was just full of fun stuff. I got to hang out with quite a few people and the wedding itself was a blast. The hardest part of the weekend however was holding the crown over Danicas head at the wedding. In the Russian Orthodox tradition a crown is held over the heads of the bride and groom during one part of the ceremony. There are pics on facebook some stuff that happened over the weekend. With all the fun and fellowship over the weekend, it was extremely hard to come back here to Holland.

- I got back Monday evening and was immediately homesick once again. The feelings I had felt the first friday I got here came roaring back. I just wanted to be home again. I thought that once classes started that I would be okay but in actuality the classes have made me ponder a new question. That question is "Do I really want to do all of this?" and probably more importantly "Is this what God wants from me?" Does my call to ministry require me to go through this seminary education? I have intense fears and anxiety about what lies ahead in life. I have many doubts about my own abilities. I still feel very lost in this world I'm in right now. There are wonderful people here and I've made new friends. I'm sure our relationships will grow over time. I think the questions in my head will continue to be "is this where God wants me?" "Can I do this?" and "Do I desire to do this?"