Not so good

The second week on the road to 300 was not a good one for me. With the return of winter weather, I did not get out to walk at all last week. I was also overwhelmed with class and other things so I didn't eat as well as I could have. The weekend was especially filled with junk food. I weighed in yesterday at 322.4 lbs, a gain of 2.8 lbs.

I think I am self-medicating with food. As the pressure of school and finding a job intensifies, I find myself turning to food and other things for comfort.

Overall, I am just in a blah mood. I am trying to stay motivated in school but as time goes on it is becoming more difficult. I am reading for class minimally, doing assignments just to get by, and generally am distancing myself from the seminary community. I just want to be done.

On top of this is the stress of finding a pastoral position. I have sent my profile out to a few churches and now it's a waiting game. I continue to look for other positions. At some point I will just have to find a "job" while I wait for a call. I am wishing that I can get on the summer work crew at the seminary but that may not happen.

I want to do more walking this week and maybe the weather will cooperate. I want to eat better because I know I will be in Chicago next weekend with all my favorite foods.