While I'm cooking dinner I figured I would write a little something.

I seem to be feeling better these days and I can see some growth in my life. Overall, I have a better attitude about life and where this whole seminary adventure is leading me. Although I still get moments in class where I just get grumpy and crabby for some reason. I start to have this feeling that no one here cares about me and I really have no friends. I remember having those same feelings back in Chicago. I know these thoughts are irrational and at least now I can acknowledge that. I have also tried to be more open with my feelings. I am beginning to see how one thing I do affects other areas of my life. I seem to have a peace about life that is quite the change from how I was a few weeks ago.

Spiritually I feel as though I could do more in terms of practices but I definitely feel close to God. I am going to give up Facebook for Lent. I have noticed that I spend an absurd amount of time on the site. I don't nearly get as much work/reading done as I want to. I got a Lent devotional and so hopefully that will benefit me as well. I just feel like I can truly say that I am depending on God. I am trying to live a life pleasing to Him. I still fall and get caught up in the trappings of life but I am trying. Relying on God's grace in every minute of my life, not an easy thing to do, but a lifelong goal.

Chapel last Friday was great. Every Friday at the seminary we celebrate communion. The leader of the service offered the bread and the cup in a different way. We actually went up to the table and sat with him as if we were having a normal meal. In watching other people I nearly teared up. I realized that every time we take communion we share a meal with Jesus. Too often communion gets formalized and I forget how special it is.