Pet peeve #2

While traveling on the Amtrak, a person shall not have a conversation on speakerphone. It's bad enough to have a regular conversation on your cell phone while everyone listens. You only add to the frustration of the whole train car by putting your daughter on speakerphone and having us hear "Like, I got like, a like a D or like."

I have reverted to the mindset of a junior high boy. I'm not in the mood to chase anymore. I'm at that age where it should just click. I thought a lot over the weekend about what I really want. I think I cam up with things I knew already but was blind to them. I want a relationship but in a very superficial way. I don't think I really want to work at a relationship. I don't want that "lovin" feeling. That feeling makes your stupid and makes you do things you don't want to.

I know that the emptiness I feel comes from a lack of relationship with God. Yes, that relationship requires work which is why I haven't been close to God all that often in my life. I've wondered a lot in the past few years about being single. More of it has to do with the lack of desire to be "tied down". But at the same time there is something very appealing about it. Now, when I normally bring this topic up, people will bring up this verse:

⁸Now to the unmarried and the widows I say: It is good for them to stay unmarried, as I am. ⁹But if they cannot control themselves, they should marry, for it is better to marry than to burn with passion."

My question is what is meant by 1) controlling themselves and 2) to burn with passion?

Is the burning with passion more than the "natural desire" that all of us have? Is it some perversion of that desire?

I'm hoping to give this more thought and prayer than I ever have before.