"Get caught in the race
Of this crazy life
Trying to be everything can make you lose your mind" -- American Honey by Lady Antebellum

"You leave home and you move on and you do the best you can
I got lost in this old world and forgot who I am" -- The House that Built Me by Miranda Lambert

These lyrics have been speaking to me for over a month now. I keep thinking that this should all get easier as I get older but it doesn't. I'm not as lost as I once was. I have a direction and am moving in that direction. Pastor C reminded me that it's his belief that God is not as interested in the goal as he is in the journey. If I remember correctly, he said the journey is the goal. I keep thinking about where I will be in a year. What will my internship this summer show me? Will I still want to be a pastor within the RCA?

To be honest, I could care less at this moment about going back to Western in the fall. One of the few things that is keeping me is the fact that I only have one year left. At the very least at the end of all this I will have another piece of expensive paper.